Well, it's certainly been a week. My friend is sick and waiting for surgery, and my aunt is in the ICU with bacterial pneumonia caused from an infection in the heart valve she needed to replace but refuses to do so. We can't do more than be there for her, but she's an hour and a half north so it makes it difficult to be there daily, plus the ICU visiting limitations makes it more difficult.

I have to do laundry, clean the apartment, and get shit done tomorrow but I'm overwhelmed. I know she's 83 and we will lose her soon given her refusal to get medical care (including 2 stents she needs in addition to the valve replacement), but we've basically been her children by proxy for a long time. As much as I hate her politics and refusal to empathize with...well, the rest of the world, I love her and losing her would be very tough. I guess the only positive would be that she died naturally, and not from shooting herself which she has mentioned many times before since she can't deal with the fact that she's aging.

 I pretended today, and went to do an abbreviated Easter before my sister & mom headed to the hospital, since I'm immunocompromised and going to the ICU would be a risk, spent time with my dad which was good, but it's a tough time. I can't add to the family trauma though so I just have to keep on going. And if she does pass, help out however I can.

We've been so busy at work that I didn't even realize until a couple of days later that I've officially been in this job two years now! Where has the time gone?! It's good...mostly, although now I know where the dysfunctions are. It still doesn't even come close to the dysfunction at LIB though, so I just need to keep breathing when it's busy and remind myself of where I came from. I still don't want a promotion, and hopefully they'll just let me stay as a researcher :).