It's back to the beginning, once more. After deleting three and a half years of one blog, and eight months of a second, private one, I'm starting off slowly. A new name, new address, and more caution on who knows about this, who will find insight into what I'm really like and who I really am. Caution on who will read the thoughts that flit through my mind and are poured on the page, but are rarely voiced. This weekend, as I was listening to Tom Petty's new CD, Highway Companion, these lyrics resonated with me and I knew that it was the perfect start for a new blog. One of my favorite quotes has always been:

We shall not cease from exploration

And the end of all our exploring

Will be to arrive where we started

And know the place for the first time. - T.S. Eliot

and the two pieces together sum up the hope that I still have that things can turn around, that I can have a fulfilling and successful life, and that I have the potential to start over. That I can learn from the past and move forward in a positive direction, older and wiser.

I will probably re-post some of my favorite entries from my old blogs, since deleting them was not a spur-of-the-moment decision and I backed up the content before deleting it from the server. But mostly, I want to make this more positive, and want it to reflect that my life is similarly optimistic. Fall is a good time for a fresh start, and a new outlook.