I rented Secretary from Netflix, and it's certainly a strange movie. However, the best romantic movies around are usually the unusual ones like this one. It's the forbidden fruit, the "deviance," the borderline abuse that no one wants to admit to, but passion and violence seem intertwined in many ways, in many models.

I'm single again, probably for quite some time, and just need to refocus on the great job instead of the dysfunctional outside life I've built for myself. I think I can do it. I just have to accept that I need to work on personal responsibility (yet again).

Something tells me I'll never have the fairytale relationship, hell, even anything approaching a normal relationship. Better to know that ahead of time, however, and at least think about slowly approximating it, accumulating knowledge of what I can accept and what's out of bounds, not by "traditional" standards, but by my own standards that make me happy. I think that's more what it's all about.