I finally got some reassurance about the current financial debacle, not from CNN, the bailout proposal, or any other public forum. We finally had a staff meeting, and just having my boss acknowledge that there is a great deal of fear, apprehension, and uncertainty currently affecting us all made me feel better since he said he doesn't know of any lay-off plans yet. Since all of the people I know laid off in this industry since this whole debacle started, only one has found another temp job at the Fed, I was very scared, and have been for weeks.

On a side note, I managed to make my sister cry again, and all of my family is clamoring for "individual days" with me, which I STILL do not have time to do, and won't in the foreseeable future. So I'm ignoring them. The last thing I need now is more worry and less rest, so I'm putting myself and my health first. I'm just glad that I can breathe a true sigh of relief, even if nothing is fully settled, I'm starting to get my faith in myself back.

It's been a tough few weeks. I'm watching the financial world crumble while worrying about my job, and trying to get some time to myself to find some balance. I've not been 100% at either. I'm scared, I'm waiting for the final judgement, and not sure if I'm going to be caught in it. In the meantime, I'm doing what I've been trained so well. Cover. Hide. Do the best you can despite everything, and hope for the future. That's the bright spot, that things can change for the better.

I've finally gotten to Sweeney Todd on my Netflix queue, last viewed Valentine's Day with two good friends who had no date, so it was perfect anti-V-Day fodder. Again I've come to appreciate just how good a job Tim Burton did with the musical, and how amazed I was to find that Johnny Depp and Helena Bonham-Carter could sing so well. It's an epic about revenge, self, and compromises that will hopefully last long after the Broadway musical is forgotten. Stage settings seem to not work as well as movies where settings can shift between cuts without any break of continuity, even though it's well accomplished it on Broadway stages.

In other, personal news, I managed to scratch my cornea putting my contacts in after my lunch nap yesterday, but luckily I only have one more day of staring at a computer tomorrow to suffer through. All I hope is that when I leave at 6:30 despite the tropical storm here, I can make it home with a minimum of trouble. After that, it's time to organize for the next week.