I've officially been downgraded to giant emotional mess.  As hard as I try, I find myself falling prey to all of my old fears, regrets, and vices.  How can I get through the day is the primary concern on my mind, let alone move forward and improve myself.

No matter how many times I've fallen, I've tried to get back up, but when I've fallen so many times in the past few months it's getting harder and harder.  Especially when I know that things that are so simple to others; getting out of bed, doing your daily work, simply being able to hold hands or communicate with others without crying or freezing up, is the hardest thing to face.

I don't know what to do, as always.  Usually I end up in a frozen state, just maintaining until I can recover and move forward again, but god, every time it's so hard.  Does it ever get easier?