I'm trying to be patient.  I'm trying to be in control.  I'm not necessarily succeeding in each but at least I'm trying.  I'm not one of the participation award generation; when I was growing up it was merit that counted until I realized that intelligence and ability isn't necessarily rewarded, but at least it gave you a chance to stand out in the right milieu. 

Things are hard again but not as bad as it has been in the recent past.  I just hope that things get better.  For now that's all I can say.