Things are going better now, but I'm still rather exhausted, and can't come up with any pithy entries or general musings. So for now I'm just happy with working on building myself (but not my weight!) back up again and focusing on where I want to be in the next few years.

As I've stated before, I don't do New Years' resolutions since, honestly, if you don't have the motivation to make those changes in any given week, chances are very slim that one day's determination will transition to a permanent life alteration.  But maybe this year, if I start early and move onto things gradually, there's more of a chance of success than trying to ban something completely  from your life when it's been a habit for over a decade.

I'm really talking about quitting smoking.  I was so sick for 2+ weeks that I physically couldn't smoke, and am trying to carry it forward.  I still picked up a pack a week ago.  On the plus side, I've only had maximum 2 a day, which is bringing it back to how I started smoking 16 years ago in college, but I (obviously) know how it can creep cig by cig until it's an automatic reaction to reach for that morning smoke. 

I'm still on the first pack and have about half left, which isn't bad for 7 days, but I have to watch myself.  I do not want to end there again; maybe I can finally quit! I can't give up yet.