Sunday, March 08, 2015

Again, I know it's been a long time since I posted, and I realize that this is a repeat of the complaints I've made many times, but more than anything I've been tired.  Work is insane and we have zero resources.  Healthcare's been bombarding me at about twice the rate they normally do; to the point where I have to tell them I can't personally handle all of their requests since I just don't have the ability to work on more than 3 things at a time.  I realize that statement is ridiculous in and of itself, but that tends to be my limit.  It's gotten to the point where I'm at the edge of just saying no, and slowing myself down again regardless of demand since I have to put my health first.

I'm still working on my sewing and that tends to calm me outside of work, as well as finding other outlets for the stress.  If I'm in this for the long term, I have to make sure that I have options, breaks, and leeway to not be the constant consultant, the idiot who takes on everything because I feel obligated.  The fact that work isn't getting done is not my fault, and I should not take responsibility for it since it's a departmental, systemic problem.  For now, I just keep going day by day, trying to deal with the inevitable overwork and not to push myself too hard. Habits are hard to break, and this one's been set years ago, but things can change and I'm slowly working toward it.  That's not doing too badly in my estimation.

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