Round and round we go. Oddly enough in my life, there have been certain patterns that have repeated without my control over them. This time around it's another move, back to the original building that I began my career with the LIB back in 2006. Unfortunately, it also means I'm being pulled off the banker floor, which we have fought tooth and nail to even acquire, and which I've succeeded in keeping since 2011.
It's another slap in the face, effectively demoting us again after our original demotion to Brooklyn last October. They say it's temporary and just for the summer, but I've learned to trust this organization as far I can throw our CEO, so I'm stuck wondering if another promise will be broken. Let's just say that I wouldn't be surprised, but at this point I've had my fill of being exploited, and I want to fight back, even though I know I have very little power to do so in the politics that permeate our organization.
I've always been one of those people where I can tamp down my anger time and again, but the price of that is the inevitable explosion. I've already started intentionally slowing down at work, doing about 2/3rds of what I can do if I'm pushing myself to my true ability. I've been slowly simmering for months, but now it's time to channel that inevitable explosion.
I think now it's time to renegotiate and reframe in a lot of ways. Most of all, I need a second computer, since my body has taken a beating through arthritis and past injuries that will never heal while I'm forced to haul around a 10 lb laptop 4 times a week. If there's no new computer, no dice. I will work from home before I drag the damn thing back and forth and compromise myself further while being exiled from the bankers. I need to learn from the past even as it rotates around again and realize that for every ounce of mental and physical energy I have put in, as time goes on and the organization becomes cheaper and more exploitative there are very obvious diminishing returns on my end.
Will I still work hard, and emphasize my particular expertise and unique skills I have? Yes, that's common sense job security. Will I sacrifice my health, pick up other peoples' messes, or answer what they can't manage to wrap their head around? Not so much. As a special favor, perhaps, but not on a regular basis, definitely not until I get them to make a minimal investment in me with the second computer.
I know that working life for those of us who hold what were once middle class jobs has nosedived, particularly post-recession, but this was the thing that really made me come very close to exploding at work in a non-productive way. I'll see if I can work on making this happen. If not, it may be time to look at other options and see how well they can get along without me there at all.
It's another slap in the face, effectively demoting us again after our original demotion to Brooklyn last October. They say it's temporary and just for the summer, but I've learned to trust this organization as far I can throw our CEO, so I'm stuck wondering if another promise will be broken. Let's just say that I wouldn't be surprised, but at this point I've had my fill of being exploited, and I want to fight back, even though I know I have very little power to do so in the politics that permeate our organization.
I've always been one of those people where I can tamp down my anger time and again, but the price of that is the inevitable explosion. I've already started intentionally slowing down at work, doing about 2/3rds of what I can do if I'm pushing myself to my true ability. I've been slowly simmering for months, but now it's time to channel that inevitable explosion.
I think now it's time to renegotiate and reframe in a lot of ways. Most of all, I need a second computer, since my body has taken a beating through arthritis and past injuries that will never heal while I'm forced to haul around a 10 lb laptop 4 times a week. If there's no new computer, no dice. I will work from home before I drag the damn thing back and forth and compromise myself further while being exiled from the bankers. I need to learn from the past even as it rotates around again and realize that for every ounce of mental and physical energy I have put in, as time goes on and the organization becomes cheaper and more exploitative there are very obvious diminishing returns on my end.
Will I still work hard, and emphasize my particular expertise and unique skills I have? Yes, that's common sense job security. Will I sacrifice my health, pick up other peoples' messes, or answer what they can't manage to wrap their head around? Not so much. As a special favor, perhaps, but not on a regular basis, definitely not until I get them to make a minimal investment in me with the second computer.
I know that working life for those of us who hold what were once middle class jobs has nosedived, particularly post-recession, but this was the thing that really made me come very close to exploding at work in a non-productive way. I'll see if I can work on making this happen. If not, it may be time to look at other options and see how well they can get along without me there at all.
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