Occasionally I'll take one of those stupid Facebook quizzes that automatically calculates the answer through your profile. This one was for what fantasy character you are, which for me resulted in Ginny Weasley and Dorothy from the Wizard of Oz. It seemed odd until I read the rationale: a warrior spirit that is strong through repeated tests since they've failed and picked themselves up time and again to be stronger. I think I could live with that characterization.
Ok, it's still a ridiculous way to classify yourself, but something in that did ring true. I haven't had a hard life, but the setbacks I have had were severe enough that it required some serious fortitude to get through, and I have endured and learned from it to a degree. There's the sense now that maybe things can be worked on and that it's not the end of the world, just an adjustment to a slightly new one, wiser and older, carrying emotional and physical scars without being constantly in pain from them.
Ten years ago, even five years ago I never would have thought that. Each crisis consumed me for years after the fact and led to some seriously detrimental behavior since there was a gnawing pain that simply wouldn't go away even when I was doing what I should. I repressed more and more until finally the subsequent crises caused by the first, the second, and the third original issues made me realize that by holding it in I was still hurting myself. I started therapy around the time I realized that link to try and not repeat the cycle again.
It would be a nice, shiny, happy ending to say that solved everything, but life is hardly a fantasy story. As time has passed, I've learned not to prescribe old, failed remedies to the situation and try new ones. I dug my hole, but only I can dig a slope out of that hole; since I've finally realized that, it's relatively applicable to the quiz result. I'm someone who has made many mistakes, and need to reframe how I think about life and consequences. I'm learning to want to live without prior patterns and deceptions. I know there will be some major bumps along the way, but I think I'm heading in the right direction, down the post-Hogwarts battle or the Yellow Brick Road life.
Ok, it's still a ridiculous way to classify yourself, but something in that did ring true. I haven't had a hard life, but the setbacks I have had were severe enough that it required some serious fortitude to get through, and I have endured and learned from it to a degree. There's the sense now that maybe things can be worked on and that it's not the end of the world, just an adjustment to a slightly new one, wiser and older, carrying emotional and physical scars without being constantly in pain from them.
Ten years ago, even five years ago I never would have thought that. Each crisis consumed me for years after the fact and led to some seriously detrimental behavior since there was a gnawing pain that simply wouldn't go away even when I was doing what I should. I repressed more and more until finally the subsequent crises caused by the first, the second, and the third original issues made me realize that by holding it in I was still hurting myself. I started therapy around the time I realized that link to try and not repeat the cycle again.
It would be a nice, shiny, happy ending to say that solved everything, but life is hardly a fantasy story. As time has passed, I've learned not to prescribe old, failed remedies to the situation and try new ones. I dug my hole, but only I can dig a slope out of that hole; since I've finally realized that, it's relatively applicable to the quiz result. I'm someone who has made many mistakes, and need to reframe how I think about life and consequences. I'm learning to want to live without prior patterns and deceptions. I know there will be some major bumps along the way, but I think I'm heading in the right direction, down the post-Hogwarts battle or the Yellow Brick Road life.
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