I can't sleep, I can't eat. I'm burning through a firestorm in my head knowing that I'm not just doing this halfway; I'm committing myself for a full 28 days. I'm terrified, even though I know this is the right thing for me, but god dammit, why can't I do this the easier way? I've tried outpatient but now I've run out of options. I'm trying to get my bills in order since I don't  have a significant other who can help to take the burden from me, and trying not to be angry about it.

I've been awake for 3 hours trying to sleep, but failing. I'll make it since I always do, but it's going to be a hard go-around. I hope to make it out.