Sorry for the delay in posting. I have about 5 vestigial posts, but none have inspired me to fully examine each of those ideas in depth. The week was long and had its ups and downs, but the primary decision now is whether to continue in the outpatient program.

On the plus side it would just be group therapy twice a week instead of classes/meetings/group 4 days a week. On the negative side, so far I've found some very fundamental differences in my experience and problems while getting sober that are foreign to the majority of others, and I don't know if the new group would be any better. I suppose I can try it for a couple of weeks and decide from there; as always I have to remind myself I have options and things don't always have to go the "usual" route.

Today is day 86, only 4 more days until the big day, and I'll definitely be taking time the following weekend to really take a very hard look at where I am and what I want. It's absolutely progress, many people have told me how proud they are of me, and until I feel it myself I'll trust their assessment.

Ultimately, February's been hard, but I'm reminding myself it's over and the warm weather is coming. Time to clean up my diet, try to quit smoking again, this time with Chantix, lose at least 5 pounds, and then I'll see what else makes it on that new to-do list for the next 3 months.