Oddly, I heard the same refrain from two different professionals today, one I've heard again and again but don't really understand. This morning was my psychiatrist, in the afternoon was my 3 month checkup with my primary care doctor (since the last year and a half of multiple hospitalizations they're keeping an eye on me). Both seem to think it's some sort of notable achievement I've quit drinking and smoking.

Yes, it was hard and continues to be. But it's hardly unheard of, and I basically waited until I literally had no other choice; not exactly a hero's act. I still feel tired and flat. I get up, go to work, come home, watch TV, and go to sleep. My routine hasn't changed, I'm just not drinking myself to sleep, and I miss it. Some part of me probably always will.

But it's necessary and keeping my doctors happy. My CT scan came back clear, and if my blood tests are acceptable then the worst is probably past health-wise. I guess there are some concrete things I can point to as achievements, as mundane as they are, and that will have to do.