I didn't make it in person to work today but thank god I can work from home. I survived the week, something I wasn't sure I was going to do and realized yet again how much and how often work depends on me. So for both of us something is better than nothing.

I know patience is not infinite, particularly when dealing with a giant corporation, but realistically I needed this. I needed to not be directly needed, having bankers stand over me or have a panic attack and have nowhere to go. I've had my fill of that for now.

So I start again, I suppose. Somehow it always comes back to that because the alternative is not pretty. Starting again is the most graceful response to the situation.