I feel like I'm slowly coming back to life. I finally caved in and started the just-in-case antibiotics I'd been given at urgent care, and am almost better from that horrible cold/cough I've had for almost a month. Working a whole week when I wasn't used to it caused my sciatica to flare up and the left side of my back to go out, but at least I made it to all of my appointments and physically made it to work every day. It's progress.
I also finally started on the list I wrote about last time. I met with my financial planner, explained my situation, and basically said pretend that I'm 70 years old. What would you recommend as a portfolio? Now instead of the growth portfolio I had of about 20% bonds, 80% stock, it's 65% bonds, 30% equity, 5% cash. I also reallocated my 401k to around the same for future contributions so financially I'm at set as I can be.
On Monday I went to the same SMART meeting and even went out for coffee afterward. I still find "recovery activities" unnatural and awkward, but I guess it's progress, and still better than AA. Simply for that reason I'll probably at least keep going on Mondays. The slew of doctor appointments start next week and continue through December.
Aside from all of this depressing stuff, the cruise is booked, and I'll actually be in Germany on my birthday which should be nice instead of sitting home alone crying :p. But seriously, it's something to really look forward to and I'll get to experience foreign cultures for the first time since 2003! We're going from Basel to Amsterdam and it should definitely be workable with the days I'll have available off from work.
The will, power of attorney, etc are the only major things left that I haven't even started on, mostly because I still haven't found any recommendations for a lawyer, but that's next. After that, I'll be mostly caught up with everything that I've just put off for too long.
Avoidance? Denial? Who knows. I still barely have answers for me about how I should plan for this, how long I have, and what's the best way to approach the state of my current life. I certainly don't really know what to tell others. But I'm finally starting to face this in some material way, so I can be proud of that at least.
I also finally started on the list I wrote about last time. I met with my financial planner, explained my situation, and basically said pretend that I'm 70 years old. What would you recommend as a portfolio? Now instead of the growth portfolio I had of about 20% bonds, 80% stock, it's 65% bonds, 30% equity, 5% cash. I also reallocated my 401k to around the same for future contributions so financially I'm at set as I can be.
On Monday I went to the same SMART meeting and even went out for coffee afterward. I still find "recovery activities" unnatural and awkward, but I guess it's progress, and still better than AA. Simply for that reason I'll probably at least keep going on Mondays. The slew of doctor appointments start next week and continue through December.
Aside from all of this depressing stuff, the cruise is booked, and I'll actually be in Germany on my birthday which should be nice instead of sitting home alone crying :p. But seriously, it's something to really look forward to and I'll get to experience foreign cultures for the first time since 2003! We're going from Basel to Amsterdam and it should definitely be workable with the days I'll have available off from work.
The will, power of attorney, etc are the only major things left that I haven't even started on, mostly because I still haven't found any recommendations for a lawyer, but that's next. After that, I'll be mostly caught up with everything that I've just put off for too long.
Avoidance? Denial? Who knows. I still barely have answers for me about how I should plan for this, how long I have, and what's the best way to approach the state of my current life. I certainly don't really know what to tell others. But I'm finally starting to face this in some material way, so I can be proud of that at least.
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