*sigh* You know what doesn't help at all when dealing with alcoholism? Guilt trips! You know what else doesn't? Lectures! Guess what I received this weekend? Both!

I get it. I'm jeopardizing my health even more than I already have, and my parents are worried and feel helpless but the truth is that they are helpless. They can't just swoop in and save the day or make  my decisions for me, something I've made abundantly clear to them. I'm doing the best I can, which some days isn't so great. Same situation with their reactions I guess, the best they can, but a lot of days not great, and getting worse over time.

I don't have the energy to deal with their angst. I have enough to work with on my own, so I'll just chalk this weekend up as the mild disaster it was and move on. Maybe someday I'll get things as right as they can be.