Today was better. I still have a lot to deal with, but the paperwork is signed to officially reallocate my portfolio, and I was much more comfortable with my financial advisor now that the "secret" is out as to my condition. I missed the SMART meeting since I could barely walk yesterday, but I'm slowly healing, although still in pain.

My default reactions to life are still anger and fear, but I feel a little more confident that I can do this. I have time left to correct some wrongs, and am working on them; most importantly I haven't given up and that, I think, is the thing to hold on to.