I've been going through the motions. But I sobbed in my shrink's office this morning. I've been staving off the grief I felt, which objectively, due to his circumstances really did make it better off that he died. Subjectively I miss him and will continue to do so.
So I guess it's good I'm starting to deal with this? The only problem is that I go directly to work after our session so I look like there's something wrong since I've never been a pretty crier. It feels like once thing breaks it's a cascade, but I have hope. I'm not suicidally depressed and believe in time that will make missing him bearable.
I'll just try to show up without crying in the morning. And sadly, not allow my family into this if possible.
So I guess it's good I'm starting to deal with this? The only problem is that I go directly to work after our session so I look like there's something wrong since I've never been a pretty crier. It feels like once thing breaks it's a cascade, but I have hope. I'm not suicidally depressed and believe in time that will make missing him bearable.
I'll just try to show up without crying in the morning. And sadly, not allow my family into this if possible.
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