It's strange. I've been exhausted from everything that's happened the past few months, but something has shifted. I had the Mirena IUD placed on Wednesday, and despite the bleeding and cramping that are still ongoing I feel...normal mentally. That hasn't happened since I was about eleven. No mood swings, less despair, simple acceptance of situations, and a desire to plan for the future. Was it really my hormones all this time?

I'm not writing off the need for sleep, healthy activities, friends to combat loneliness, but hell, maybe this is why sobriety didn't stick the first 45 times? Usually it was a descent into depression that sparked the relapse, and maybe this can help with that? I have a million questions with no concrete answer, but I'll work with this as it goes.