So I managed to get my shit together. Again. God this is tiring, back and forth and pretending, not sleeping and basically going back to half-assing it at work, but knowing I need this job so badly.
The Fourth of July happened and I also managed to keep my shit together then, which I'm rather proud of. Despite temps around 90, 95 heat index I dealt with my entire family. I only lost it near the end after the fireworks when I was tired, it was still desperately hot, I was streaming sweat and still had to get from the LES to the UES and go to work the next morning. Cranky would be the best descriptor, probably.
I'm watching the outside giant shitshow break in terms of trade wars which are specifically targeted at red states and will take a few months to drive home the point that this will hurt farms, car companies, building manufacturers that use nails, steel, etc. It's not what's necessarily happening now, but what can happen if this escalates. This could be recession territory and I've already worked through one of those. Do not need another, thanks.
Especially because when the layoffs come in this country for companies, they come fiercely and without warning. Colleagues I never got to say goodbye to, stress that caused a couple to literally die from stress and heart attacks, general pullbacks and benefit cutting at a time when they've already slashed our benefits and I need them now more than ever.
I'm honestly scared. I knew we (sort of) elected a giant asshole and idiot, but his "business sense" is absolutely horseshit and if unchecked he would probably manage to bankrupt the country like he has himself and his businesses. Congress for now is playing along, but I hope someday they manage to impose order on him the way they are supposed to, by acting as a check to him and not allowing him to divide the country, inflame allies, fellate dictators, and drive the economy into a ditch. Playing the bully and then caving like the coward he is while spinning it to the media as a success may have worked in a small corner of New York as a private businessman. It is NOT a way to run a country.
As for my personal circumstances, I can't imagine not voting for whichever candidate is closest to decoupling health insurance from a job (and yes, that includes socialized healthcare) because that is my, and many others, greatest need. Our country is sick in many ways, and this would be at least one facet of a remedy. There is positive progress to be made governmentally. I just don't see it now.
The Fourth of July happened and I also managed to keep my shit together then, which I'm rather proud of. Despite temps around 90, 95 heat index I dealt with my entire family. I only lost it near the end after the fireworks when I was tired, it was still desperately hot, I was streaming sweat and still had to get from the LES to the UES and go to work the next morning. Cranky would be the best descriptor, probably.
I'm watching the outside giant shitshow break in terms of trade wars which are specifically targeted at red states and will take a few months to drive home the point that this will hurt farms, car companies, building manufacturers that use nails, steel, etc. It's not what's necessarily happening now, but what can happen if this escalates. This could be recession territory and I've already worked through one of those. Do not need another, thanks.
Especially because when the layoffs come in this country for companies, they come fiercely and without warning. Colleagues I never got to say goodbye to, stress that caused a couple to literally die from stress and heart attacks, general pullbacks and benefit cutting at a time when they've already slashed our benefits and I need them now more than ever.
I'm honestly scared. I knew we (sort of) elected a giant asshole and idiot, but his "business sense" is absolutely horseshit and if unchecked he would probably manage to bankrupt the country like he has himself and his businesses. Congress for now is playing along, but I hope someday they manage to impose order on him the way they are supposed to, by acting as a check to him and not allowing him to divide the country, inflame allies, fellate dictators, and drive the economy into a ditch. Playing the bully and then caving like the coward he is while spinning it to the media as a success may have worked in a small corner of New York as a private businessman. It is NOT a way to run a country.
As for my personal circumstances, I can't imagine not voting for whichever candidate is closest to decoupling health insurance from a job (and yes, that includes socialized healthcare) because that is my, and many others, greatest need. Our country is sick in many ways, and this would be at least one facet of a remedy. There is positive progress to be made governmentally. I just don't see it now.
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