My furniture is arriving tomorrow finally! I bought it over Labor Day weekend but it was delayed, and coincidentally I have tomorrow off (which was planned pre-delivery notice). I'm still disturbed by the response of my colleague to back off everything because I've had to fix her mistakes quite a few times. And not mistakes like it was hard to find the correct company, but where it was run incorrectly. She also has never asked me to help out even though it's been demonstrated many times that I know what the hell I'm doing in our M&A database.

I don't want to start a fight. I also know my boss has worked with her for about 20 years so I wouldn't win that fight if it escalated, but I also don't want to quiet quit. I don't think I'm actually capable of quiet quitting as long experience has shown since I was always an overachiever. And even though I've tried to wait, to push back, to not take on everything I'm capable of for fears of getting told off again, I just can't. Things are still better than they were at LIB, but the fact that I have more strife within my department at SIB makes it difficult. Especially when I'm covering the work of about three people again. *sigh*

I need to focus on positives. I need to focus on delivery tomorrow and the good things that this job has allowed me to have for the first time in my adult life. But honestly? Still angry about the stupid note and the fact that today I had to clean up another one of her mistakes, while pleading with the banker to stay silent and not officially log the job so my colleague wouldn't come at me again.

You would think that after a year and a half in the job, and demonstrating that I can stack up with the rest of my colleagues there would be more trust. I know I'm coming in as the underdog since our other newest researcher has been there about 6 years, but I don't get it. I ask for knowledge everywhere and anywhere I can, I know that there is ALWAYS more to be learned. Why wouldn't you ask for help instead of getting salty about it?

Yes, it bothers me. Deeply. I just...don't get it. And I need to find a way to get over it because I can't change it.