This is going to be a busy month, so I'm glad that work has slowed down a bit. We even hired someone new (yay!) so hopefully when the summer interns arrive it won't be as crazy as last year. This weekend is Mother's Day of course, and then the weekend after we're celebrating my birthday.

I'm going to be 45 years old, which kind of sounds about right and yet is kind of is incomprehensible to me. I never thought I'd live past 35, so this is a milestone in many ways that most people take for granted. Between trying to kill myself quickly and slowly, it really is a miracle I've made it this far. Age has brought more wisdom and patience, particularly patience with myself and my flaws, so I think the days of actively trying to off myself seem to be mostly past.

I'm on medication that works. It's not perfect, but it helps. I still have health issues which are difficult to work with and will continue to be so for the rest of my life, but such is the price I pay, and working from home helps a lot since I don't have to spend hours commuting. It also affords me the chance to get more sleep, which is extremely vital in my case to manage pain.

Overall, I'm grateful that I'm alive for my 45th birthday, and for once in my life I do hope to have many more!