I have a cranberry pecan cake in the oven since I've decided I'm cheating on my diet this week. I've lost 70 pounds over the past year and a half and damn, it sucks. I'm hungry a lot but its worth it for the weight loss, especially since I know it does make me healthier.

My family went to the Wheaton Arts Halloween festival which is fun, but the amount of people I saw there makes me wonder about this country (of course a lot of things do that, including that Trump might end up back in office, much to my horror). People are either thin or probably about 300 pounds; few in the middle. I get it, it's easier, particularly as you get older, to put on weight, but when I hit a certain point I said "not happening." Do people not notice? Or not care that they are a size 20+?

I've resigned myself to the fact that I'm probably never going to have a flat stomach again, since fat cells are permanent and I let myself go during Covid, but I do fit into a Large size again, and might be able to pull a Medium instead of straining the top end of the Extra-Large category. Considering how I see myself, as weak and dealing with many vices, this was the somewhat easier thing I could improve. I hope that so many there and elsewhere manage to work on themselves, mentally, physically, and just overall, to make things better. Accept that nothing is perfect, but work towards being healthier.

Also, Prime Day just happened and I was thrilled to get 2 new tops for next summer on sale that I fit into now. Those little things make the hunger worthwhile lol.