I'm tired. Tired of the grind from work, tired of hearing fucked up information from family on who has murdered/been to jail recently. Tired of having to hold it together through it all on the outside while falling apart on the inside. Tired of dealing with my sister not dealing with life. Tired of my alcoholism, depression, anxiety and not being able to access proper support because our healthcare system sucks.

 But what I do have going for me is that I'm a goddamn stubborn bitch and not going to give up. I will fight until I can't anymore since that is what I fucking do. It exhausts me and makes me think at times that I can't, but I won't.